Bad Mommy

I am not a blogger, I guess. What has happened in the past 4 months? Seems like nothing new though I'm certain Sean has grown in many ways. He calls the cats "mi-now" which I guess must mean "meow" though I don't know why that would be stuck in his head (the cats aren't very vocal except for when they shouldn't be = like when he's sleeping!) He is obssessed with this word. It is the first thing he says when he wakes up - he says it while we're out, during all circumstances -- it's starting to worry me how much he says it but whatever. he does have a ton of other words too here at 19 mos. old but he is not talking, per se. He does a lot of repeating, like if I say "clock" he does too. I keep waiting for him to communicate with me verbally. I want him to say "cup." At his 18 month visit he was 25th percentile in weight and 75th in height. I guess I'll take it since I'm probably 5th in both.

OK so I'm 4 months pregnant. I have been so sick it's ridiculous. If it is another boy there is no rhyme or reason to the old wives tales. If it is a girl, I will understand that the chemistry was completely different this time. I'm finally coming out of the sickness part - probably last threw up a week ago. But my God, the headaches are in full force this time. I remember some headaches with Sean, but they seemed to pass. This time, there is always a headache, whether an underlying dull roar or a full blown nightmare.

At 18 months Sean stopped breastfeeding. We'd been winding down for awhile, and then it was over. It ended a lot less painlessly (physically and emotionally) than I expected so YAY. At 18 months Sean went into his own bed too. He hated the crib so we converted it to a toddler bed. For the first couple of weeks, I thought a miracle had occurred. He was sleeping through the night but waking up at 5 AM (I'll take it!). But the past few weeks have been a downward spiral. He's been waking up at all hours and still getting up at 5 AM. I think I'm going crazy. I don't know what it is. Yeah we've taken him into the bed with us after we've tried to get him to go back down for forever which I know is bad but everybody does it. So I keep waiting for things to get back to where they were for those initial blissful two weeks. C'mon, please?!

There's a lot more to say but I'm going to post this and (maybe) add more later.

xo